したい放題 ほうだい
shitai hōdai

Expression

1. doing as one pleases; having one's own way

わたくし なんでも自分 じぶんのしたい放題 ほうだいにしたかったのに。
watashiwa nanidemo jibunno shitai hōdaini shitakattanoni
I wanted to have had everything my own way.
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