はじ
ikihaji

Noun

1. dishonor during one's life; shame experienced during one's life

Related to 死に恥
最近 さいきんのぼくは、「生 はじ」「赤恥 あかはじ」をかくことを おそれなくなりました。
saikinno bokuwa "ikihaji" "akahaji"o kaku kotō osorenaku narimashita.
Recently I've stopped being afraid of "living in shame" and being exposed to "public ridicule".