赤恥 あかはじ
akahaji

Noun

1. great shame (endured in the public eye); deep embarrassment; profound humiliation; utter disgrace

Related to 赤っ恥
最近 さいきんのぼくは、「生 はじ」「赤恥 あかはじ」をかくことを おそれなくなりました。
saikinno bokuwa "ikihaji" "akahaji"o kaku kotō osorenaku narimashita.
Recently I've stopped being afraid of "living in shame" and being exposed to "public ridicule".